Eleven no more

It was a moment I could still remember clearly and look back at beautifully. That spot where we both stood at a weird angle and smiled. It was so special I could almost hear music. I did not know then that it could change my life forever. And now it ends with an excruciating pain I feel in every inch of my body. Yet it is in this pain that I can affirm so much more how much I loved you. If only it could have ended differently. If only I could love you even for just a little bit longer...

I have been sober all this time. Drinking did not cross my mind. Perhaps because I know that not even alcohol can numb me at this. Losing someone you love doesn't need a juvenile approach to it. I just fight it and deal with it with all my might. But it doesn't stop. It just fucking doesn't. To be completely honest, I really don't mind. I suppose this is just how it is to fall in love.

"Said I loved you but I lied. 'Cause this is more than love I feel inside."

I wrote these song lines on a card I made that I intended to give last eleventh. I never got the chance to. Just as this love, our hopes and our dreams never got the chance to forever.

I almost forgot how it is to be alone. My superhero isn't around to save me from troubles anymore.

The End